Mar02 Day7 With the Kids
I got to sleep late after coming home from Men's League. Passage of time felt a bit strange...
Left the studio after 10:30 - drove to gas station and just snuck in at 11:03 or so. They turned out the lights and were busily locking up the smokes and lottery tix etc. Didn't get back to Veg until 01:00. I was aware of not having been fully present during the whole drive back.
Pretty sure I had the cruise control on... otherwise might have been later yet ;-)
Went to my house to do a bit of email and get something - MP3 player maybe ?
Was very tempted to just crash in my bed, but I told Chava I'd sleep over there so I gathered myself up and bipedally transported myself over to their place.
(Does that count as living from my deepest purpose? - that concept still seems elusive to me)
Noticed the stars out, thought of S. and wondered how different they would look from CA - .
Noticed all the extraneous skylight, and wasn't motivated to hang out very long.
The cold gets to me in a way it hasn't before.
I was chilly in the bed - put longjohns and socks back on. Started the holosync tracks - became aware of the one music track "Soul Meets Body" (http://www.deathcabforcutie.com) that just feels so beautiful and deep and aware and inspired by Truth. Bumped along a few other tunes "Lack of Color", "I'll follow you into the dark" until about 4:00 when I decided to shut it down and just plain sleep. I love the calm and beauty and gentleness I feel in that not-quite-awake-not-quite-sleeping space..
**RTD** I just became aware of THE TIME!! I started this blog session a little after 8:30 when the kids left
intending to write for about 15 min, then meditate, and get on with a more focused day.
SHIT! it's already almost 10:00
Woke up a little after 7:00. Made OJ, cooked some eggs, signed some forms, I had a pleasant time hanging out with the kids as they got ready for school.
Oooooh, chance to play piano... rolled through my repertoire... a bit chunky in places, but that came back on the repeats. I love the sounds - this is a wonderful piano, for me.
Called D. - another wonderful telephone Satsang with a master.
Go home, start cleaning up. Skyped S., got her setup, both computers... Real world calls in the form of computer stuff. One serious problem, one trivial, another non-determined.
I long to get out into the sun, but in the end get squeezed. I get to kidz at 4:00, hang, start homework, go to JJK's to arrange for guitar lessons for J.. Perfect slot 4:00-4:30, he's got a book available, done. Back for more C. homework.
Scramble some supper, J. to friend, C. to gymnastics, me to land to feed goat - sunsetting.
Cold out there. Walked along river to border, back along fenceline. Hard to relax and be fully present - aware of that at the time.
Left the studio after 10:30 - drove to gas station and just snuck in at 11:03 or so. They turned out the lights and were busily locking up the smokes and lottery tix etc. Didn't get back to Veg until 01:00. I was aware of not having been fully present during the whole drive back.
Pretty sure I had the cruise control on... otherwise might have been later yet ;-)
Went to my house to do a bit of email and get something - MP3 player maybe ?
Was very tempted to just crash in my bed, but I told Chava I'd sleep over there so I gathered myself up and bipedally transported myself over to their place.
(Does that count as living from my deepest purpose? - that concept still seems elusive to me)
Noticed the stars out, thought of S. and wondered how different they would look from CA - .
Noticed all the extraneous skylight, and wasn't motivated to hang out very long.
The cold gets to me in a way it hasn't before.
I was chilly in the bed - put longjohns and socks back on. Started the holosync tracks - became aware of the one music track "Soul Meets Body" (http://www.deathcabforcutie.com) that just feels so beautiful and deep and aware and inspired by Truth. Bumped along a few other tunes "Lack of Color", "I'll follow you into the dark" until about 4:00 when I decided to shut it down and just plain sleep. I love the calm and beauty and gentleness I feel in that not-quite-awake-not-quite-sleeping space..
**RTD** I just became aware of THE TIME!! I started this blog session a little after 8:30 when the kids left
intending to write for about 15 min, then meditate, and get on with a more focused day.
SHIT! it's already almost 10:00
Woke up a little after 7:00. Made OJ, cooked some eggs, signed some forms, I had a pleasant time hanging out with the kids as they got ready for school.
Oooooh, chance to play piano... rolled through my repertoire... a bit chunky in places, but that came back on the repeats. I love the sounds - this is a wonderful piano, for me.
Called D. - another wonderful telephone Satsang with a master.
Go home, start cleaning up. Skyped S., got her setup, both computers... Real world calls in the form of computer stuff. One serious problem, one trivial, another non-determined.
I long to get out into the sun, but in the end get squeezed. I get to kidz at 4:00, hang, start homework, go to JJK's to arrange for guitar lessons for J.. Perfect slot 4:00-4:30, he's got a book available, done. Back for more C. homework.
Scramble some supper, J. to friend, C. to gymnastics, me to land to feed goat - sunsetting.
Cold out there. Walked along river to border, back along fenceline. Hard to relax and be fully present - aware of that at the time.
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